出轨女人的自白：出轨女人是怎么想的

 henduorendouhuihaoqi，neixietachuchangguideren，doushiyinheerqi，weihexuanzeshanghaibierenyejizijidailaibubian，chuguinvrendezibai：chuguinvrenshizenmexiangde?nvrenweishenme ☞chugui ?

一、出轨女人的自白：出轨女人是怎么想的

 chuguinvrendezibai：chuguinvrenshizenmexiangde?nvrenweishenmechugui?jintianjidajiafenxiangyiweiwangyoudeqinshenjinglidegushi：xiawuyuanyangxishuicha，shi1gechaloudexingming。taweiyuzaiwoqiyeloudixiadezhuanjiaochu，zongmianjibuda。

 henxiandeneishihou，doushiquneiyinchaherishai。chabianyi，quanshiyiwangdedetuye。wotiaoxuanneibianbingbushiyouyutadecaiyuanguangjin，fanguolai，zheieryiban quanshihenqinglengde。wojuqibeizi，minleyidakou，teku。“kuding?”“en，woxihuan。nishiyixia，xiguanjiuhaole。”

xiawuyuanyangxishuicha，shi1gechaloudexingming。

 taweiyuzaiwoqiyeloudixiadezhuanjiaochu，zongmianjibuda。henxiandeneishihou，woyiban doushiquneiyinchaherishai。chabianyi，quanshiyiwangdedetuye。wotiaoxuanneibianbingbushiyouyutadecaiyuanguangjin，fanguolai，zheieryiban quanshihenqinglengde。

wojuqibeizi，minleyidakou，teku。“kuding?”

“en，woxihuan。nishiyixia，xiguanjiuhaole。”

“好的。”

一丝的缄默。

“henguaiyiba。”tagenwoshuo。

woningshizheta，meiyoushuohua。

 “tajiushiwolaogong，laiyaowohuilaide。”tayegangkaishiningshizhewo，“wobuzhiweishenmeyaojiangrangniting，huoxujiushiwoyaolikaile，burongyidangeniba?”

“burongyi，”wobaitou，“ruguonimeishier，wobuzaiyitingnidejingdiangushi。”

 “jingdiangushi?”taziwodiaokandebaibaishou，“youshi，wodaoningkeshijingdiangushi。”minleyidakoukuweidechayecha，tagangkaishijinxingtadegushi。

 laizheiyidiquyiqian，woyizhidouzainagexiaozhenyishizhuxing。henningjing，yehenfawei。tashanghaishiqu，gaofangchankaifa。bijiaomang，dayueyiyuecaihuijialeduoci。renmenyouyigeguinv，feichangtaorenxihuan，woneishihouyishizhuxingdeguanlizhongxinjiushishuojinjinweiraozheta。

 shehuishenghuohenfuyou，xuduorenxianmujiduwo。wojuede，meiyourenlejie，congguinvwenshineiyitianqi，woliangbianzaiyebuhuifuqixingshenghuole。henguaiyi，woxiangxintazaiwaimianyebingmeiyounvren。huoxushidoutaishuxile，woduitazaiyebuhuiyouhuoli?yinci，renmenchaojiahenshuci，yeyicicideshuodaotichufenshou，youyuxiaohai，douyituozaituole。

“en，meiyijiazhongwojuededouleiside。”wochalejiju。

 huoxuba，youdeneishihouhenxiangkeyizaihuidaocongqian，fanhuitachongwodeshiri，kezheileixiangxiangzhijinxianyumeijiandaotashi。jiandaobierenshi，jiuhuiganjuezheiyinanrenhao……zang，woyebuzhidaoruheyongdaozheiyicimiaoshu，jinguanwoqueshishihenjianxintameiyouqitanvren，jianxintaqueshishibuhao。

 zhihou，woyibuchunzhen。you1niandeqixijie，tasongshenmeliwudoumeiyou，rendoushilaidaolingchensandianhuijia。wobiandaolerenmendiyudewenziliaotianshi，shizhongliaodelingchensandian……。

 tashi1gegansushengdenanren，bangeyuehourenmenpengmian，suihoulijiqukaifangjian。zaizheiliyiqian，wodoubuqingchuyou“yuepao”neiyangdejiaofa，buqingchushenmeshifang。yaoburanyeburongyineimashahuhudigensuineigerenzou。danwodequeyehenxiaita，1durenweinaizhishiaishangta。wojuedezhidaorujinyinweiwohuanshihenxiangta，tazairenmenneibiandeshijianhenduan，yiyue，renmenmeiyizhoumodouhuiyikuaier，meitiandouhuiwuzili，4gezhoumo。bingqieneishihouwoguihaitapaishezhaopian。

hehehe，rujinyeyouneiyangyuepaodenvrenma?

“nizaoyibuguishuyuyuepao，niyizhizaichugui!”wodeyanguangyouyisisiqingleng。

tameiyoufajue，ziguzhexiangxiashuo。

 chuguinvrendezibai：chuguinvrenshizenmexiangde?nvrenweishenmechugui?shide，xinherentidouhuitaneibian。taliqushi，wodoutongku，beiguoshenqu，leiliuzaitageboshang，taneishihouwojuedelejie，danjiazhuangbuqingchu。zhihoutagenwoshuoneishihoujiulejiebixuyaogaoyiduanluo。taneishihoushixiangyuepaode，xiangbudaoyudaowozheileihenbendenvren。

 tayeshuoguoxiaiwo，huoshishineishihouxiaiwo，zongzhizheizhongyebuguanjianle。tazouhouhailianluoleguoduanshijian，zhihoutajiujianjiandidexiaotuile，tahuanleshoujishang，woyezaiyebuhuitadexinxi。

“zheijiushinixingmingzhongdezhutiqu，zenmehuiganjuenilaoxianshengzangni?”wohenwukenaihe，youyouyisisiguaiyi。

 shiya，henguaiyi。wobuzhidao，zijizuobudui，quemeiyouneijiudejuede，fandaogengyanfanta，wochangchanghuizijiwuyuanwugudeduozaijiazhongtongkuzheichang，wohenta，hentadailaiwoneiyangde1gehunyin，wobenlaikeyifeichangjiandandiyishizhuxingzhe，kerujinrenhedouzaoyibiantilinshang。

 suihouzaiqinshenjingliguodiyiweinanrenxiaotuihoudemeiduanhentongchudeshijianhou，wolejielexiayige，suzhoushide。zheicishihenzhenshidechenlun，woyejitaoyanta，jiushishuoxiangduifusheiyiyang。danshi，reqingdeneishihouxiangdehuanshineiren。

“zheijinjinchongdong，xubuxuyaoneiyang?”wojinbuzhuzhixunwendao。

 youguoduanshijian，woshouduanxindouchengyin，jiushishuoyouyutazhiqianhuizaiduanxiaoxilishuohenchongnvrendehua。taxiaotuihou，wojinwenziliaotianshilejiexuduowangmin，buyuanliaonaxie，jiugaosutatarenshoujihao，rangtamenfaxinxibangwo，xintainiuquba?hehehe。

tabingmeiyoulihuiwodezhiyi，jinjinchenjinyuzaiyigerendeshijiezhong。

 queshihenguaiyi，zijibuduineimeduo，queshimeiyouyidianerneijiudejuede。zongzhigengyanfanta，neileibenzhibuyuanpengdeyanfan。tayiranneimalengdan。

 woyebuzhidaotashibushilejiewodeshier。youduoci，renmenzhengchao，woyiqizhixiajiuchongkouerchu“wohaiheqitananrenfashengguanxile，nikeyiruhe?tajuranjiuneibanyishengbuhang!neiyishunjian，worenweizishenkuaifengle!”

shengyinmaixiafubi，tajuqibeiziyiyinerjin，nizhidaoma，tazaipingyizishendexintai。

shiduofenzhonghou，taningjinglehenduo，gangkaishihuiyingwodewenti。

 nizhidaomaneijiushichongdong。danshi，nilejiema，neishihouwodeerzizaoyi6suile。zhengzhengde6nian!danshi，neiyicizhengzhiyihou，wogangkaishiganjuemeiyoushayisi，jiuwojiuyibuhewaibulianluo，yishizhuxingzaicihuidaoyuandian。

 taduiwomenyeshizhuanhao，jinguanyiranbuyuwotongfang。keshi，yibuyizhijianmo，niwozhijiangangkaishiyongyougoutongjiaoliu。huoxu，renhedougangkaishiwenbufazhandecengmianfazhanqushi!zhizhi――

tazaiduzhongting，neiyanjiaojuranyouyidileiluoxialai。

chenyinleyixiaxia，tacashuileleishui，zaicijiangguoxialai。

 zhizhiyouduocitadaigukehuijia，neijiushigeduitazhiguanzhongyaodeguke。tahendangxindejiaodaiwoxianghaohaodijiedaizheiyiren，shuohoudabanniandegongchengxiangmuquanjixiwangyutazijile。woliangpeineirenzaiwonagexiaozhenzhuanlejiri，wandehengaoxing。danshi，gongchengxiangmudeshierquefangfomeishenmejindu。neirenrengranshanshuoqici。

 jianjiandide，shiwoyisisifajue，zheigerenduiwomentebiexiai。zheiyidianer，nvrenquanshihenbijiaomingande。woxiangyao，tayeshifajuede。linxingdeneishihou，neirenshengqingyaoyuewoyaoqushanghaiwan。yemeiyoushuohua，tahenjiqingdebangwodayingxialai。

suihou，tagangkaishiquanwodaoshanghaizhaoneiren，zijiqu……

tadexiangshenggangkaishiwuyan，yanleizaoyibunengyizhi。tameiyouca。

woxiangqu，shierbanhaole。

erwozaiyebuhuihuijiale，lijigandaolezheier。woyaoqu1gecongmeiyoulaiguodediqu，1gemeirenlejiewodediqu。

wohanxin，jinjinmomodidenajitaweishengzhi，rangtacacacayanlei。

 cha，zaoyiliangle，wozhanqiquzaicizuomouxiekaishui。nizhidaoma，zheishihou，tazhibixuyingduizishen。guolehenjiu，huijiadeneishihou，tahaoxianghaolaxuduo。

 “zhenguoyibuqu，dajiaoniyizhongwu，tingwoxutao。”tadandanxiaodao，“quanshiyiwangdejingdiangushile。tajiranzaoyixunzhaowo，neiguojirihuoxuwoyaolikaile，jiangrangnizheiyi“moshengren”depenyou。liugeliunianba。”

“要离开了?”

“en，xiaohaiwobeidaidediqugaosutatafuqinde。liqu2nianle，taxiangwo，yinweiwoxiangta。zhongjiu，neijiushiwojia。”

 “en……xingba。wangjiguoquba，wozhuyuandajia。”woxiangyaolehaozhangshijian，zongshibuqingchugaishuoxienaxiehao “yinweiwogailikaile，zaijianba。”

“再见了。”

她送我摆脱茶楼。

外面的雨一直在下，