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 songlihuashuozishenshineileidanaojianyidenvxing，renshengzhilushangrenyunyiyun，qianqueshejifanganganhexijuhua：23suidaxuebiye，24suiwanhun，25suiyoudongdong……yiluxinglai，yihuankouyihuan，riyejiancheng。sidongfeidong、hulihutudangzhong，tajiuweirenfumule。 jingshenchuguiyoushenmebiaoxian ?mengjianairenchuguizenmehuishi?

 zaichufangyongju、niaobushibolinaipingzhongmangdechoumeibuzhandeneishihou，tayecengyicicixianmujidushenpangzheixieyirancongrongbupodixiangyouyigerendeshenghuodenvpengyou，keshijinxienianzheileiqingkuangquechanshenglexijuhuadebianhua，songlihuajingchanghuizaoshouzheixieyiqiansatuodedanshennannvnvpengyoumendejingxian：“nizhenqudechenggong!ruguonisuanzuowuchulaile，duinvxingeryan，‘nizaoyishixiaohaitaniangle?’yuanbi‘nihaimeiyouwanhunni?’tingqilaigengshushimouxie。”neiyangdehuaburongzhiyishiduiyigenvhaidejiangli，changchangzaoshouzheileibufasuanyidekuajiang，songlihuajiuhuiwailuxiangceshuinongnuxiangtongtuqiyangmeidexiao。

 chuguihuanxianghuibianchengzhendema?xiachudehuanghun，zaidongdongyuertonghuabancheqifeidebeiyingtupianhoubian，songlihuaqidingshenxiandidezouzhe，shichangxiangzhichaijiyiyangchongdongdongdiaopidebeiyingtupian“gedada”rangshangjisheng。cishi，zheiyinvxingshoushangzhengdazirandishifangzhehaoqizideqichang。songlihuashuoshizhongdoujuedezishenshi1gefeichangrongyikaolvdenvxing，rutongrujin，yaoshiyuanyuankanjiandongdongchengcaidebeiyingtupian，xinjiunuannuandibaohezhuangtaizhe，gaoxingwubi。kelaodongjiejiaotongchuxingshiyudaodemeiduanxiaozhutiquyourangtayinyueganjue，zaitanrantiandandebiaomianshenhou，neikechushibujingdexinyoushihouhaihuizaodongbuanditiaojitiao。

 “wu……ganqingjiushishuo……qingtouyiheba。”wotuntuntutudishuo。“qingtouyihe?feichanghao，taiguinale!danshi，zheiyi‘xiang’zizuoqilaidanshinanledian。niyuetabushuang，tayuenibushuang，dounanyishixian。rutongwozheiduocihunyin，yihuibiyihuinulideduo，jieguoqueyihuibiyihuicanzhong……”tajuebugujizhoubianrenhaoqixindeyanguang，gangkaishidui1gelvtuzhongzhongbujiulejiebushangliangzhongtoudeyixingpengyoutongshuojiashi。guoquqianqizibuxihuanxianjiaoshizhongshuodaoqizishigepianzhikuang。qijian，tadexiaobiaoqingbianhuanmocekuapingtai，yihuierxingfukuailehuiyi，yihuierzhangyuduantan，yihuierpaianshuofa，yihuierxiagurouchang……zuizhong，tashuangyanlishanzheguang，wangzhewoshuo：“wojuedeworenwei，ganqingjiushishuoxindongdeganjue，huoxushibencibujingyideouyu，huoxushizheizhongbujingyideduiwang，rutongrujin……”

 chuguihuanxianghuibianchengzhendema?zuowei1gewanhun7nian、xiaohai6suidenvxing，wohuoxugaoqingchutazheiyipianwenzhangjixingbiaoyaneryongdesanwenshiliyunhanzhenaxiede“shen”。kanjiantapinmingdeyanchu，wohuranganjueyoudianergaoxiao：xiaohuoer，zheiyizhengtaohuanshinalaipianxiaoguniangba?shezai1ge6suixiaohaimuqinyanqianbaibuzheizhong，buganjuehengaoxiaoyoumoma?danshi，buzhiweishenme，neixinfeichanghaoqixin：wodaoyaokanyixia，tatiqianzhunbeiruheyaowodiaoshang!

 songlihuazheileirenwuxintaihuodonghuranyaowoxiangdaole《zhenshidehuangyan》。zaineishihoudewolaikan，juzhongnagebiaomianchuantongrenzhenxizhi，xinliqueqipantanxiancijixingdelaopohailunhaowanerwubi，danshiyezhishishihaowanerbale，meiyouxiangguobiede。rujincaifajue，renhezaoxingyishuquanshilaiyuanyuyishizhuxingergaoguoyishizhuxing，hailundepinpaixingxiangjinguanshengdonglexie，queshirichangshenghuozhongqianzhongshuweichengneizhongduolaopode1gezhenshixiezhao。zaihunyinzhong，nvxinghuodexiaosayulaiyulingsui，yulaiyuzhenzheng，yulaiyubaochiqingxing，quebuqingchuzaiheshi，baganqingjinongdiule。cike，zaibaozhuangdebingbutaigaomingdetangyipaodanyanqian，tamenjiuhuizhanxianchuxiaoguniangtongchangdechunzhentaorenxihuan。

 “niyeshibeifangrenba?kanqilaijiaoxiaolinglongde。”guozhen，tajinxinglejingong。“bingbushi。”woxiaozhebaitou。“neijiushinaliderena?”“nicaiyicai!”zaizheiyimoshengrennanshengyanqian，wojuranyongyouduojifenmeishaonvtongchangdewanpiyuhaixiu。

 mengjianairenchuguizenmehuishi?liangfankankanyujiaofengchulai，wohaizaitayanqianjiuyuelaiyuequantoumingle。“wojuedetaigongpinggongzhengba?niduiwomenleranyuxiong，woduiniqueshadoubudong。jiangjiangnizishen。”tajiaoxiadixiaodao：“woruheganjuezheizaoyimeibixuleni?”womendoulejiedeshi，henqiadangdehuiying。zuishaoshigeconghuidepianzigongsi。

 chedaozhanle。tabianzoubianshuo：“yiqiquchidianfanba?wosheyan。”wojingxingdibaibaishou———nibuhaipapofei，wonandaohaipakuaijiwoxiamenghanyaoni。cike，xinlingshenchugangkaishibuledichizezishen：shifouzishenguoduqingtiaohesuiyile?dongdonghaiyaodengzhewohuilaijitamendaixiaowanjuni!kanyixiazishendouhuizuoxienaxie!dianjizhedianjizhe，zongyouleduojifencankui。yincizhanwenjiaogenduineinanshengzhengsedao：“nixiantaoba，wozhangfuhexiaohaiyiduanshijianlaijiewo。”

 “e，shineiyanga……”takanqilaiyixiexinhan，youkuaisuquchuwenbenwendangxiechunaxie，suihoujiediaonajiwo：“tashiwodedianhua，youshiqinglianluoba。”shuozhe，tachongwozhazhayanjing，xiangjinzhankoufangweiqu。

 songlihuashenkaishou，yaowokanneizhangbeitazuandeyoudianerchaohuhudezitiao——shangbianyougexingmingheyizhangchuanshoujihao。nenggouxiangxianghuode，zheizhongtianlai，songlihuayingduizheichuanshoujihaoshiquanbudezhuiyi、xiasi、yuwangheqipan。

“dalezheiyihaoma?”woshuota。

 mengjianairenchuguizenmehuishi?taminzhezuibaibaishou，zuibafushangyisisixiaoye，buqingchushixiaozishen、xiaoneigerenhuanshixiaozheijianshiqing：“wojuedewoquandoulejie，kejiushishuoyizhibulezishendexinlv。”

nizhidaoma，wojuedesonglihuabingbushibeizheiyinanshengsuoxiyinzhu，zhishibeizishendexinlverxiyinzhu。

jingshenchuguiyoushenmebiaoxian?zaihunyinlisinianganqing，zheiyexusuanshitadefanraozhichu。